~Hasegawa Ryouji~

Dear, I need to tell you something… This is very important. I hope that you have a chance to read this. This might be able to make our relationship more closer & we don’t have to feel distant anymore!

I have a problem to communicate with you not because i have secret or have something to hide from you. It’s the face expression that you show me when i’m with you… I can never catch ur expression whether you are happy, sad, stressful, annoy or angry… Your face expression can change from time to time and sometime i feel hard to talk you because i care for you a lot. All i can do is just ask you once, if you respond i know you are free & willing to talk with me but if you don’t respond then i’ll know what to do next, i just talk to you next time when you are free!

I really know how your working condition is… from all the morning, evening & night shift, you are tired and mostly lots of work to do at the hospital, especially in ICU & CCU. You need to really stay focus in your work cause people’s life is at risk. Your mum also understand your hardship so we all trying to ease you from your work stress. She cook you food, eat together with you and patiently wait for you to come back from work. Mum’s work at home is hard routine that takes her life & time day by day without us knowing how hard they taking care of their child. That is what Mother’s Day for to remember how much love & care their pour to us. So i hope you understand your mum why she babble a lot when you come home, just a simple word to ask you “How is your day going today?”.

I know i always away from you most of the time because i got to study while you working. But i really sorry if i make you feel alone or bad feeling. Most of the time, i can only send you a message or call you just to make sure we keep connected. Sometimes i don’t even have time to send u any message and same goes to you… Plus your work time is not fix, so i can only send you one message at a time and hope for your reply so that i can know when you are free to chat! My dad also care for you most of the time and always ask me what time you go to work from time to time. He even ask me why you didn’t reply his message sometime so i have to tell him you are busy or resting after work.

All this make me quite sad how we have been over this past three years together! And it’s really hurt when you say you don’t know me anymore! I really care for you most of the time as much as i can even when i’m away from you. I think you know how much that is. I been thinking sometime for now, what you say that day! I really can’t take your word and it’s really hurts a lot! I feel like i been a fool for three years. How much love and care i give to you all along?

It’s getting late and i’m going to wake up early tomorrow so i’ll stop here. Hope by the time you finished reading this, you will understand how i deeply feel towards you…Good night dear & sweet dreams!

Fri, May 23, 01:28:36 AM